- Oct 6, 2018
I feel even worse when it's beautiful outside. It 're affirms all that I am missing and all that I want to do but my disgusting diseased body won't allow. I can't even sit in the sun any more without feeling like acid is being poured over my head and inside my face sinuses and lungs. This overwhelming feeling of loss makes me want to die more than anything now. Yet I desperately cling on hoping there may be some improvement and I may experience a normalish day one day soon.