- Apr 17, 2019
I can not commit suicide because I have no will power but I am wanting to and I cannot go on, I need something that’s easy, accessible, painless and affordable.. with little effort needed.
The best method is to order N from A if it is possible for you.
I also have no willpower. This is the result of my mental illness. It is hard for me to make decisions: today it seems to me that it is necessary to wait for the opportunity to order N, tomorrow it seems that it is necessary to take SN, the day after tomorrow I think that SN is painful and not reliable enough, and so in a circle. It's disgusting, my life is like a dull movie.
N is Nembutal. Alan James is describing his jumbled thinking on account of his mental illness whereby one day he thinks he should take Nembutal, the next day it should be sodium nitrite, the day after he thinks SN won't work well enough and doesn't know what to do next.wait I thought N was nembutal, I'm confused.
I don’t think it’d be reliable for me either since I know no drug dealersSupposedly people are dropping like flies with the opioid epidemic, and the media makes it look so easy you could do it by accident, but I guess it depends on access. I'm too socially awkward to maintain contacts for buying drugs, I hate it. So even though it looks like a nice way to go, it's not a realistic option for me.
What is itI can relate to this a lot. I have this problem where if anything bad happens in my life I just sit there doing nothing about it. In any kind of situation I pretty much never initiate things, in the end that makes me very anti-social. Most of the suicide methods require a lot of additional equipment, drugs that are hard to access, and it's really unappealing to me. Anyone heard of 'Aboulia'?
I feel like I could relate with that..
Aboulia or abulia, in neurology, refers to a lack of will or initiative and can be seen as a disorder of diminished motivation (DDM).
Aboulia falls in the middle of the spectrum of diminished motivation, with apathy being less extreme and akinetic mutism being more extreme than aboulia. The condition was originally considered to be a disorder of the will, and aboulic individuals are unable to act or make decisions independently; and their condition may range in severity from subtle to overwhelming. It is also known as Blocq's disease (which also refers to abasia and astasia-abasia).
Sad that people are dying of accidental fentanyl overdoses when I'd be sooo grateful to have some. It seems like a super peaceful way to go.Supposedly people are dropping like flies with the opioid epidemic, and the media makes it look so easy you could do it by accident, but I guess it depends on access. I'm too socially awkward to maintain contacts for buying drugs, I hate it. So even though it looks like a nice way to go, it's not a realistic option for me.
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