Does anyone else feel like their Psychiatrist is trying to Murder them?

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Razor's Edge

Razor's Edge

Scars Beneath the Skin
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Has anyone's psychiatrist ever tried to murder them?Here's my story:Please Bear with me...this is most important When I was with my ex-husband, he tried to kill me on many occasions, he broke my shoulder, he false imprisoned me in my own house for 1 month. He beat me so bad I couldn't recognize myself in the mirror for 2 weeks. He tortured, beat and raped me. (Yes a husband CAN rape their wives...btw) I barely escaped with my life and our daughter.I was forced to live with my mother for awhile...as a LAST resort. This actually is the ONLY reason I didn't runaway sooner.Shortly after we left, my now ex-husband, got pulled over by a female police officer for driving dangerously in a subdivision. He proceeded to try to beat her to the ground, he tried to run over her with his car, got shot in the arm, tazed 6 times (which he got up from...don't know what he was on), drove off, abandoned the car and ran, and there was a massive manhunt out for him for over 6 hours. They called me to see if I had heard from him or seen him, then told me what happened, and obviously this all terrified me that he was coming for me and my daughter. He eventually was caught, got 7 years in prison, 1 year for what he did to me, and 6 years for the police officer. (It doesn't seem fair)When he finally got out of prison, he lived quite a few states away...whew!!!Ok...moving to today...I found this out due to my fiance' looking on Facebook Marketplace, he accidentally came across my ex-husband, and it said that he lived 1 city over from me NOW!!!I freaked out completely!!! Terrified, I called my mother to warn her...I told her what I found out, then asked if she already knew...and she said yes, and that he had been here for over 3 years without her telling me, yet everyone in the family knows except me.My mom, who won't even pray for my fiance' when he was very sick (who, by the way is a HOLYROLLER Christian, that actually called Me DEMONIC on Easter no doubt, and was busted with this lie the very next day, no doubt) invited him to her house with open arms (yes, she knows EVERYTHING he did to me).
She won't even accept my fiance', who has never touched a hair on my head, but this demon she accepts.
Even my daughter (also knowing EVERYTHING he did to me) has been seeing him, and this is quite terrifying, actually!


:devil:Plus my psychiatrist, whom me and my daughter have been seeing for 13 years, btw, (who by the way was the very first, and only psychiatrist I have ever seen,
who was there for me from the beginning and knows EVERYTHING!!!) is also my daughters, and so HE has also been lying to me for 3 years.
This whole situation is very detrimental to my health, as well as my daughters...yet does my Mother give a fuck about Me? or her granddaughter? obviously NOT!!!
;-;I feel So betrayed by EVERYONE, except my fiance' that is.

I was Absolutely NOT going to see him again, unless it would not turn out too good.
(Yes...I have been planning on CTB for the last 8 months...You can see how well my medication was really working, huh?).


I called in my medication for my anxiety meds Well, as soon as I found out, I most definitely needed my anxiety and panic medication, desperately...More than ever, except in the beginning of this story that is.and also my mood stabilizers.Then, when I finally found all of this out, I refused to go back to see my psychiatrist, but I still needed my medication. So I would just call and cancel and reschedule my appointments for the last 8 months in order to get my meds.
He wouldn't refill either.
This is 8 months ago, that is. I had to get the pharmacy to harass him over 3 times before he got fed up enough and refilled them.

But until he did refill my meds, I thought I was going out of my mind!

And, obviously, my psychiatrist seemed to want me to go so crazy so that I might kill myself!
Just the thought, that the doctor that helped me through some of the worst times in my life, that I thought genuinely cared about my well being and my mental state, knowing everything that had happened, and then years later, this happens and does he warn me that this situation could be very detrimental to my health? No! He doesn't give a fuck!
He hides this very important knowledge from me for over 3 years.
It makes me wonder if he just wishes me dead!

;-;You cannot imagine how much this betrayal broke my soul.

So...now, you're up to date...

So, even though I had already been making plans to CTB BEFORE I found this out, this DEFINITELY upped my readiness to get off this fucking rock!!!:ohhhh:

Sorry this story is so long.
But does anyone else feel similar? Please share your story.
 
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JSauter

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Your psychiatrist doesn't want to refill your meds because he has to see you within a reasonable timeframe in order to assess where you're at and give you your medication, not because he wants you dead.
 
k75

k75

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I'm very sorry for what you've gone through. That sounds horrific and it's not fair at all.

But I don't think that your psychiatrist is trying to hurt you. There are laws that say that they have to see you within a specific amount of time or they can't prescribe anything to you. They can lose their license if they don't follow these rules. I'm sure that's why he kept wanting you to come in and would not give you your medicine. If you don't mind sharing, what was he lying to you about that made you not want to see him?
 
Grandexit

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Doctors can’t just endlessly refill prescriptions. I’m surprised he hasn’t reached out with a letter stating that you need to be seen for continuity of care in order to get refills on medication. I’m uneasy about him seeing you and your daughter.

best answer is, to get a new doctor for the meds, and see a psychologist several times a week for the emotional stuff. You’ve been subjected to so much trauma. You should be doing a lot of emotional work.

i would say once you have a emotional support team, do a cleanse of people in your life. Cut them out until you’re more steady. Just focus on yourself, and your child. No outside noise from your mother or anything else. Wishing you the best.
 
Razor's Edge

Razor's Edge

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I have read all of your responses.

First, you must know, that I live in a very small town, that only has 1 psychiatrist.
However, he is completely full of patients.

My asshole of a doctor, worked in my town for a long time. This is where I met him, and I was very comfortable with him, so I was his patient for 13 years.
After a few years of helping me, he moved to a clinic in the town next over. He invited me and my daughter to follow him there if we wanted to remain under his care.
As it turns out, he is NOT even in our jurisdiction, so if we broke down and lost it and got committed, he could do absolutely NOTHING!!!...
For that matter, PROBABLY won't even know about if one of us were to be committed.
He NEVER told us that we were out of his jurisdiction, and just continued taking our money. What a fucker!

As to not being able, by law, to have to see me, so and so many times in order to keep refilling my medicine...
I know you may have a point,
:devil:However, if he was YOUR doctor, and had betrayed you for over 3 years, knowing that at any time, you could be stalked or killed, would you trust him to ever go back to see him?
Did he care? Fuck NO!!!

I cannot drive to other places because my car is not reliable.

I think I'm just fucked!!! ;-;
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This post goes out to: @JSauter, @k75, @Grandexit,,



 
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GoodPersonEffed

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There are laws that protect the confidentiality of anything your daughter shares with him. Had she told him that your ex was making threats, the doctor would have been required by law to report that to the police.

If he were a friend or relative, then I would be likely to agree the nondisclosure was a betrayal, or at least a choice that acted against your best interest. In this case, the doctor acted in your daughter's best interest and within the ethical bounds of his licensure.
 
UninformedLover

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Are you crazy? That sh*t is so disrespectful.
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I'm so terribly sorry to hear this is all happening to you. Have you ever thought of doing online therapy? There are many websites that allow you to have get a therapist and therapy sessions online for an inexpensive price.
 
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Razor's Edge

Razor's Edge

Scars Beneath the Skin
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I'm so terribly sorry to hear this is all happening to you. Have you ever thought of doing online therapy? There are many websites that allow you to have get a therapist and therapy sessions online for an inexpensive price.
Thank you so much for the information. That may be exactly what I need. And thank you for the kind words.
There are laws that protect the confidentiality of anything your daughter shares with him. Had she told him that your ex was making threats, the doctor would have been required by law to report that to the police.

If he were a friend or relative, then I would be likely to agree the nondisclosure was a betrayal, or at least a choice that acted against your best interest. In this case, the doctor acted in your daughter's best interest and within the ethical bounds of his licensure.

Thank you for your response.
However, when this happened, my daughter was still a minor, she's 19 now, but She has the mind of a 12 year old. I was always with her, in part in every session she had. Everything shared was supposed to be shared with me. That's why this doesn't make any sense.
Just betrayal...
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passenger27

passenger27

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That's terrible what you've gone through. It proves how much of a shit psychiatrists give about their patients. 13 years is a long time. I guess since you've been a patient of his for so long he's let things slide but you should have gotten a call or something, even a letter would be nice. Anything. What the game is, is you have to go to see him to be "evaluated" so this asshole gets his money to take his family out for a steak while you're on the verge of CTB. I live in a small town too with only one psychiatrist myself, and the only therapist didn't take my insurance, so I was screwed from the beginning with that, which didn't really matter to me. I'd seen therapists for 10 years and nothing changed for me. I was still always on the verge of CTB, I saw no reason to keep on with it.

Bear with me, because this is my story about my experience with the only shrink in a small town.

Firstly, I've been seeing psychiatrists for the last 19 years, and this particular one was my 3rd dr. The 1st retired and the 2nd had a practice at a hospital, so I was getting double charged $50 to see my dr and $50 for the hospital, so obviously I had to stop seeing him because I'm on disability and it's not like I have a fortune to throw around. Plus he was out of town so my ragged car was always a warrior just to make my appointments.

So I here's how it went down. Someone told me there was a psychiatrist that started practicing in my town, 5 minutes away from my house. I was ecstatic. No more driving out of town.

So I go, get an appointment, and a week or so later went to see him for the 1st time. I took my bag of meds my 2nd dr prescribed me to let him see what I was on. Lamictal, Gabapenten, Seroquel, and Tranzene. This fucker acted like I just walked off the street with a bag of meds to pop them recreational I guess. I really don't know, other than I stick out like a sore thumb in this shithole where I live. I have long hair and tats all over, so I dunno, maybe he thought I was a druggie. That's the feeling I got anyway. So he judged me from the beginning, even though he knew the story about my last shrink. He left me on everything but the drug I needed the most, which was Tranzene. You have to understand, besides Bipolar I have severe agoraphobia. I can't even walk to the mailbox it's so bad, my fiance checks it for me, which I greatly appreciate. But he wasn't having me being on any benzo. It pissed me off to no end, but remember, he's the only psychiatrist in town, plus I thought well maybe he's got a master plan to "cure" me.

All he ever did was put me on off label meds for my anxiety. Stuff like Lyrica, things for pain, things like that. Awful things like Saphris, some shit I can't remember the name of but I'd have to get blood work every week, which was ridiculous to me. I got diagnosed with PTSD and he puts me on Topamax, which made me a raging asshole. It almost cost me my relationship it got so bad. I told him about this. I told him about everything, but he didn't care at all. I'd stop the Topamax, and a few months later he'd put me on it again. He did this 3 times. THREE times. So the point is, is even if he wasn't trying to take me out, which I often wondered, he didn't seem to give a shit about what these meds were doing to my life at all.

Luckily, my fiance was able to get me set up at the clinic she went to, which unfortunately was out of town, but away from that asshole. @Jean4 , I dearly wish I'd known about reporting him to a licensing agency, because I would have done it in a hot minute.

@Razor's Edge , if your daughter was a minor 3 years ago and you went back with her to her appointment, I really feel like you should have been told this. That''s just my opinion. If your daughter was being pushed in any way to see your ex by anybody, they're insane. That isn't in your daughter's best interest. If he beat you what's to stop him from beating her. It's all terrible, and I'm sorry this is happening to you. I'd try to find a new psychiatrist if you can.

I said all that to say this: I'm not sure if my 2nd shrink was trying to "murder" me or not, but he sure as hell didn't give a shit about me.

Anyway, I hope things get better for you, I wish you the best of luck.
 
Razor's Edge

Razor's Edge

Scars Beneath the Skin
Jan 5, 2020
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Your psychiatrist doesn't want to refill your meds because he has to see you within a reasonable timeframe in order to assess where you're at and give you your medication, not because he wants you dead.

I have been seeing this same doctor for 13 years. He knows my diagnosis's.
I think he knows that I know he is in on the conspiracy with my family for over the 3 years.
He should be very uneasy if he were to ever bump into me again! Hell hath no fury...!!!
And to withhold any medication from a mental patient, you might just be asking for a national disaster of epic proportions!!!
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Throwmyselfaway

Throwmyselfaway

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Jan 14, 2020
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I had a shrink for awhile but I stopped seeing her because she just wouldn’t listen to me. My wife wants me to go back to her because I can get in ASAP. Other options it’s a 3 weeks wait around me.
 
TimeToBiteTheDust

TimeToBiteTheDust

CTB is the best painkiller
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I'll tell you next week after my first appointment.