Scars Beneath the Skin
- Jan 5, 2020
Has anyone's psychiatrist ever tried to murder them?Here's my story:Please Bear with me...this is most important When I was with my ex-husband, he tried to kill me on many occasions, he broke my shoulder, he false imprisoned me in my own house for 1 month. He beat me so bad I couldn't recognize myself in the mirror for 2 weeks. He tortured, beat and raped me. (Yes a husband CAN rape their wives...btw) I barely escaped with my life and our daughter.I was forced to live with my mother for awhile...as a LAST resort. This actually is the ONLY reason I didn't runaway sooner.Shortly after we left, my now ex-husband, got pulled over by a female police officer for driving dangerously in a subdivision. He proceeded to try to beat her to the ground, he tried to run over her with his car, got shot in the arm, tazed 6 times (which he got up from...don't know what he was on), drove off, abandoned the car and ran, and there was a massive manhunt out for him for over 6 hours. They called me to see if I had heard from him or seen him, then told me what happened, and obviously this all terrified me that he was coming for me and my daughter. He eventually was caught, got 7 years in prison, 1 year for what he did to me, and 6 years for the police officer. (It doesn't seem fair)When he finally got out of prison, he lived quite a few states away...whew!!!Ok...moving to today...I found this out due to my fiance' looking on Facebook Marketplace, he accidentally came across my ex-husband, and it said that he lived 1 city over from me NOW!!!I freaked out completely!!! Terrified, I called my mother to warn her...I told her what I found out, then asked if she already knew...and she said yes, and that he had been here for over 3 years without her telling me, yet everyone in the family knows except me.My mom, who won't even pray for my fiance' when he was very sick (who, by the way is a HOLYROLLER Christian, that actually called Me DEMONIC on Easter no doubt, and was busted with this lie the very next day, no doubt) invited him to her house with open arms (yes, she knows EVERYTHING he did to me).
Even my daughter (also knowing EVERYTHING he did to me) has been seeing him, and this is quite terrifying, actually!
Plus my psychiatrist, whom me and my daughter have been seeing for 13 years, btw, (who by the way was the very first, and only psychiatrist I have ever seen,
who was there for me from the beginning and knows EVERYTHING!!!) is also my daughters, and so HE has also been lying to me for 3 years.
This whole situation is very detrimental to my health, as well as my daughters...yet does my Mother give a fuck about Me? or her granddaughter? obviously NOT!!!
I feel So betrayed by EVERYONE, except my fiance' that is.
I was Absolutely NOT going to see him again, unless it would not turn out too good.
(Yes...I have been planning on CTB for the last 8 months...You can see how well my medication was really working, huh?).
I called in my medication for my anxiety meds Well, as soon as I found out, I most definitely needed my anxiety and panic medication, desperately...More than ever, except in the beginning of this story that is.and also my mood stabilizers.Then, when I finally found all of this out, I refused to go back to see my psychiatrist, but I still needed my medication. So I would just call and cancel and reschedule my appointments for the last 8 months in order to get my meds.
He wouldn't refill either.
This is 8 months ago, that is. I had to get the pharmacy to harass him over 3 times before he got fed up enough and refilled them.
But until he did refill my meds, I thought I was going out of my mind!
And, obviously, my psychiatrist seemed to want me to go so crazy so that I might kill myself!
Just the thought, that the doctor that helped me through some of the worst times in my life, that I thought genuinely cared about my well being and my mental state, knowing everything that had happened, and then years later, this happens and does he warn me that this situation could be very detrimental to my health? No! He doesn't give a fuck!
He hides this very important knowledge from me for over 3 years.
It makes me wonder if he just wishes me dead!
You cannot imagine how much this betrayal broke my soul.
So...now, you're up to date...
So, even though I had already been making plans to CTB BEFORE I found this out, this DEFINITELY upped my readiness to get off this fucking rock!!!
Sorry this story is so long.
But does anyone else feel similar? Please share your story.