- Oct 24, 2019
I don't want to see 2021.
Hi if you are thinking of your sister definitely wait until after the birth for her sakeall i want is to disappear. it’s constantly on my mind. if i had what i needed, i’d go tomorrow. but part of me wants to hold on until after my sisters given birth?
she’s due in less than 4 weeks. i don’t know if it would be better for her to grieve before or after she’s given birth. i just don’t know what to do.
hey. thanks for the reply :)Hi if you are thinking of your sister definitely wait until after the birth for her sake
It's okay, if you do ctb after the birth she will obviously grieve for you but at least have the baby to help her get over you.hey. thanks for the reply :)
yeah that’s what i was thinking. if it’s going to break anyone, it’s going to be my sister, and i just don’t want to make it worse while she’s pregnant
OK but wouldn't that be just as bad? New years is right after.. not trying to tell you what to do, just sayingI am planning on possibly departing this world just after Christmas. I don’t want to go during the holidays because it would be too hard on my family.
I was meaning a few weeks into 2021, I tend to think of Christmas/New Years as the same period of time.I'm shit at setting goals/making plans(I guess that's part of why I want to die). Every attempt I've made has been spontaneous. I think about it everyday and then I'll just randomly decide to do it.. maybe if I was better at planning things I wouldn't be alive right now lol
OK but wouldn't that be just as bad? New years is right after.. not trying to tell you what to do, just saying
I know exactly how you feel. I'm stuck in a cycle of intense suicidal thoughts and the pain is unbearable but I'm still here until the day I finally manage to go through with it.Once every ten seconds, I'm like this is it... then I talk myself out of it. Or I meet someone interesting or I get inspired. Really, it's kinda like threatening the universe.