Discussion do you have a date or deadline?

LastWhisper

LastWhisper

Who cares if I'm drunk?
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November - December. So many mistakes were made, plus many other problems that follows me for 10+ years. I would like to be dead until the next year, so people I known could just drop the burden of my troubles.
 
yive

yive

i choose death
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the appointed date worries and confuses me, so i want to do it spontaneously.
i should have done it back in August, but i couldn't, and now i regret it :(

i understand that if i did it then, i wouldn't lose anything
 
LenkaX

LenkaX

Will CTB until the end of 2020.
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I already had several good opportunities (home alone for more than 2 days) but I screwed up and decided to continue living. It was a bad decision, I could have been already dead and feel no pain... But one day I will ctb for sure. Life is a hell.
 
Weary Soul

Weary Soul

Soon I will be free
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Yes, within the next week or so. I am aiming for next weekend.

Just wanted to say before I go - thank you all so much for this forum and your willingness to post here.

The support I have seen here for everyone has been incredible.

Hugs and love to all!

<3
 
Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

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At the moment, I don't have a specific date set, but I have my SN. When I know the time is right, I'm probably going to go for it. Lately I've been hoping that recovery is possible for me, but the world I live in keeps showing me how unlikely that is. If I am remembering right, SN is good for about 3 years, so I have to either recover or CTB before then.
 
RoadLessTraveled

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I fluctuate. I have goals and then get stressed about the prospect of actually getting things in place to off myself. For the longest time I didn't know how to drive and lived with my parents, so that made things near impossible. Now both of those problems are solved, and I have roommates that I HATE living with so that removes any guilt I'd have of them having to deal with it.

Now I got a firearm, and I'm gonna practice with it beforehand. I definitely don't have a set date in mind, but I'd prefer to do it sometime this winter. My problem has always just been when I've wanted to ctb, I didn't have the tools, ya know? So now I'm like... when I get those feelings again, I'll actually be able to do something about them and stop living this life that gets worse and worse each year I don't leave.
 
UnaccompaniedJourney

UnaccompaniedJourney

You told me think about it, well I did...
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Preferably by the end of the year. Had my SN since June, just need to worry about the rest.
 
_Cakes_12

_Cakes_12

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Right now, I think I am only here for my dog. She has an issue with weight and only I acknowledge and take care of her.
I've lost my partner.
I love my dog, but if she wasn't here, I would of CTB months ago..
I'm hoping, by the time I've lost her, I will have a method in place. Hopefully, losing her will be my final push and I'll be at peace
 
kujocel

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After Christmas at least, probably sometime in January. I just need time to get my affairs in order, spend some time with my loved ones, and cross as much as I can off my bucket list ofc. Lockdown's kinda fucked me over on that last one though lmao.
 
ghostspace

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i believe it will be january or february but nothing is set in stone. i’ll know when it’s time.
 
SadJessu

SadJessu

Just tired.
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Not particularly. I’m not sure if I’m ready to die, or if I ever will be. Though I have this feeling that I’ll ultimately die by suicide, and it often occupies my thoughts, which is why I’m here. Just waiting on that big trigger I suppose.
 
unlovible000

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I really want it by just after Christmas, but most likely it will be around late January or early February. The past few months have been the worst for me in years. I’m at the lowest point in my life.
Hopefully soon. Living with family makes it hard though. I've learned that I can't set a date. If it doesn't work out then it makes me feel awful and embarrassed.
Yeah, living with a family makes it harder, I live with mine, if I had abandoned them earlier (which I plan on doing soon) I’d have been dead for at a month.
Hopefully soon. Living with family makes it hard though. I've learned that I can't set a date. If it doesn't work out then it makes me feel awful and embarrassed.
Yeah, living with a family makes it harder, I live with mine, if I had abandoned them earlier (which I plan on doing soon) I’d have been dead for at a month.
No matter what choice you make, I wish you peace.
 
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muffin222

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I haven't set an exact date, but very, very soon. I have some loose ends and practical tasks I need to tie up first.
 
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