Do you guys hide the fact that you’re depressed?

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Do you hide your depression?

  • yes

    Votes: 57 64.0%
  • no

    Votes: 32 36.0%

  • Total voters
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Verklempt

Member
Dec 30, 2019
88
217
For me, yes. I don’t think any one knows that I am dealing with a mental illness. On the outside I put on a mask but behind close doors I hate my life. I feel like I shouldn’t burden anyone with my problems and I don’t want people to pity me because I have a mental illness. I pretend that I’m ok, which I’m not. I give up on trying to get help since I don’t see the point. I was just wondering if anyone is dealing with this and that I’m not alone.
 
waterbottleman

waterbottleman

We are Groot <3
Sep 30, 2019
284
639
The only reason I hide my depression is because I’m seriously suicidal and don’t want to be stopped.

i used to not hide my depression but no one cared to ever ask how I feel. I dont remember the last time I’ve been asked how I’ve felt, the last time I received any words of encouragement at all.

Im an invisible ghost to the world, no one cares about me or even acknowledges my existence.
 
reapandsow918

reapandsow918

Unconsciousness=Happy Ending
Nov 6, 2019
144
465
^^^same as post above. In order to reach CTB and destroy my depression/suicidal thoughts you have to hide it. There’s no other way or there goes your rights and chances of CTB. It’s honestly a hard thing to keep it a secret but this forum helps.
 
porfin1234

porfin1234

Specialist
Dec 26, 2019
360
820
If I would change something about myself it would be the ability to just fake and not let any of my sadness and negativity come through. So tired of this knee jerk reaction to always express my emotions. I don’t know why the hell I’ve usually been so negative. It’s exhausting. And very isolating. No one wants to be around that.
 
TheOA

TheOA

Member
Jan 5, 2020
88
129
^^^same as post above. In order to reach CTB and destroy my depression/suicidal thoughts you have to hide it. There’s no other way or there goes your rights and chances of CTB. It’s honestly a hard thing to keep it a secret but this forum helps.
Yes! This!
 
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helIboy

helIboy

everything hurts
Jan 10, 2020
29
106
In my case, it would be pretty hard to hide. I've been open about it for years
 
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Throwmyselfaway

Throwmyselfaway

Not gone yet but soon
Jan 14, 2020
281
336
Well my wife doesn’t seem to care. Oddly enough she was going through sometime seriously depressed and I helped. However my depression has gotten so horrible the last few months she hasn’t noticed. Doesn’t even ask about anything with me. Only thing she notices is if I vomit or there is money in the account.
 
Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
2,506
4,086
Sometimes, I'll hide it, but not all the time
 
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Flume

Flume

Villain
Oct 28, 2019
303
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The only reason I hide my depression is because I’m seriously suicidal and don’t want to be stopped.

i used to not hide my depression but no one cared to ever ask how I feel. I dont remember the last time I’ve been asked how I’ve felt, the last time I received any words of encouragement at all.

Im an invisible ghost to the world, no one cares about me or even acknowledges my existence.
Amen
 
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SuiSqueeze92

SuiSqueeze92

Self Saboteur
Jan 15, 2020
118
126
I hide everything with crude humor so they think it’s a joke most of the time, they get a laugh and I don’t get unwanted attention and afterward I still expressed myself openly
 
Schadenfreude

Schadenfreude

Member
Dec 23, 2019
64
138
I try to, but most of the time I can't bother to put up a front because even that gets too overwhelming.
 
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properchap

properchap

Jonathan
Dec 31, 2019
6
13
I totally hide my depression. I can pull off a normal outer persona. If I go out anywhere where I need to interact with people I prefer if I can to take cocaine.
 
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Green Destiny

We will fade.
Nov 17, 2019
139
190
Yep. I have told my mom that i've thought about suicide twice but she blew me off because she doesn't wan't to acknowledge my mental issues as she does with her own mental issues.
 
MsMaudlin

MsMaudlin

This Is My Truth Tell Me Yours
Dec 8, 2019
332
704
I hide it, because anytime it bubbles to the surface it just gets ignored. So I may as well just internalise it all anyway.
 
mathieu

mathieu

Wizard
Jun 5, 2019
608
1,025
As much as I can, yes, with most people. With my immediate family I’m honest about it.
 
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AlreadyGone

AlreadyGone

Taking it day by day
Jan 11, 2020
364
405
I hide it, but sometimes it can become overwhelming. When it does, I just act as if I do not want to be bothered so people can leave me alone.
 
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MrOptions

MrOptions

Afterlife is whatever a soul wishes or believes.
Jan 6, 2020
60
91
Yes. You mask it the best you can when others rely on you financially and emotionally. It's been like that for me for decades. Depression and suicidal thoughts go hand in hand. Also, the actually mental strength and mind set you need to plan and execute CTB is absolutely daunting. I fully respect anyone that wants to CTB for whatever there reasons are. There is more to us than just a physical container.
 
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Angelus Errare

Angelus Errare

Where angels lose their way
Dec 3, 2019
244
803
Only two people know about it. Mother and a friend. Not counting doctors and psychiatrists.
 
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CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

I reject my humanity
Jan 9, 2020
520
913
That's probably why they don't think of me as depressed haha. Does anyone else pretend it is a joke when it is actually very serious and not okay?
Same. Never hid my depression or suicidality (except from bosses lol) but I often tell about it in a very ambiguous manner, so you can't tell if I'm serious or not. It helps that they don't want to believe me in the slightest and already have some preconceptions about what kind of a person I am.
 
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daffo

Member
Aug 25, 2019
24
27
when all started 10 years ago i hided my depression, i also had some minor suicidal thoughts but nothing serious. things getting worse year by year, now i plainly tell to other that i want to die, i usually jokes about "if a perfect pill that will lead you to death in 1 minute exist, i would take it instantly". people don't want to talk about this, even if you go to a friend and say "i want to kill me" the only reaction is fear, fear of responsability, fear that he/she will be forced to be there for me. there are some people to whom i always want to tell "i need you"; i think is the purest form of love and affection, knowing that you can tell a person "i need you" without the fear of scaring he/she away. never experienced that, so now on people from me will have only crude jokes about ending my life until i finally will do it.
 
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RedPanda

RedPanda

One day we shall be free from this mortal coil.
Jul 16, 2019
130
319
Yes, nobody has the slightest clue that i'm extremely depressed and very suicidal. I'm 100% successful at hiding it and somehow proud that they don't even notice. This forum has given me the opportunity to remain anonymous and vent as much as i want. I love this forum.