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woxihuanni

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I have to a bunch of futile things. My partner is out to see a house to buy to run away from my corpse, accompanied by their owner. They think I don't know. I will feed them in the evening. What an honour to be useful as they are passing my death sentence.
 
catalepsy

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I've worked 6 12hr days this week, and today is my only day off. Next week will probably be the same. So today, I am adamantly refusing to go to sleep. I will be strung out and go shoot stuff with a redneck friend and take copious amounts of drugs to make up for the desert of reality I've been dragging myself through.
 
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Went to the kitchen earlier and was surprised by a flooding. With tiny, rotten (?) pieces. On the floor and in the drawers... Everything smelled like beer and rot. Spent hours to clean everything and missed a live stream.

At least it distracted me a bit. Now I feel sick and hungry.
 
Nessie

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I worked 17 hours in a row to fix a mess I created at work due to honestly having no idea what I'm doing because I'm very new, then dropped down and slept like dead. I woke up to a missed conversation with my teamlead about the way I failed to fix the mess and it got so big there is now an investigation involving everyone up to the highest level. I get a hunch I'm going to be unemployed by the end of the day and I have no idea what to say to people who question "how the f this happened?".
 
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I wondered around the woods looking for deadfall and figuring out what species of tree were located in what locations and soil conditions. This was in an effort to find the best place to collect leaf litter or leaf mould during the autumn.
 
Underscore

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Walking along a back alley, I found a magnificent green dragonfly resting in the middle of the road. I nearly stepped on him. I've always loved these creatures and had the larvae (terrifying alien like creatures with jet propulsion and a folding spear jaw) in my pond. I once saw one emerge and transform, but I've never seen an adult up close before. Shame I didn't have my phone for a pic.
I picked him up and put him on a tree. He didn't fly off. Looked healthy enough. Maybe he was just old and worn out.
 
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Felt heavy/groggy all day long. It was not beneficial that I ate too much in addition. Later on I could motivate myself to go for a walk, but I was surprised by a thunderstorm. So I went home again. Did some cardio and now I'm tired af.
 
BitterlyAlive

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Went to therapy for yet another initial session. This therapist seems pretty cool. Feeling really anxious today and foggy. I was so on edge during the session that I had tremors and was twitching. Yikes
Felt heavy/groggy all day long. It was not beneficial that I ate too much in addition. Later on I could motivate myself to go for a walk, but I was surprised by a thunderstorm. So I went home again. Did some cardio and now I'm tired af.
Did the cardio help at all? It's great that you were able to do it :)
 
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Today I'm tired af again.

Went running after getting up and got really tired afterwards, but I still managed to clean the floor and got rid of things before napping. Will go for a walk later on and then call it a day.

Did the cardio help at all? It's great that you were able to do it :)
No, but I expected nothing else. No matter what I do, nothing changes.
 
BitterlyAlive

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Today I'm tired af again.

Went running after getting up and got really tired afterwards, but I still managed to clean the floor and got rid of things before napping. Will go for a walk later on and then call it a day.


No, but I expected nothing else. No matter what I do, nothing changes.
I understand. Nothing I do changes anything either. But I'm glad you're taking steps to care for yourself, at least.
 
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Got up, made breakfast and went for a walk near the tracks just for fun. I was looking for a certain spot, but the area is so remote and dodgy that I didn't feel safe. Then I went to another spot I knew. Felt totally exposed and suspicious when two passenger trains passed, and when I was waiting for a freight train and it came, my heart started pounding and I hid behind a pole. I had to chuckle when I left.
 
Nessie

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Woke up in the morning, went out to a shop to buy some food, and discovered that my balance is zero. The bank decided to swiftly cut off all of my credit limit as soon as I repayed my debt. Did not expect this at all. Went home empty handed and laid on the floor with my cats for two hours because I just can't anymore.
 
Blueman

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Woke up early lay in bed wishing I hadn't left my job, spent too long on here instead of looking for new jobs.
Showered had breakfast came back on here thinking that ctb might be a better option the continually looking for jobs I probably won't get and if I do probably won't like
 
Squiddy

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Yesterday was rough as hell. My ctb thoughts were pretty high. Went to the book store and all I felt like doing was curling up in a ball on the middle of the floor and dying. Today I'm feeling a little better, though still feeling like ctb.
 

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