Ctb or catch the psych ward

Fadingfast

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My dreams are even depressing... I can't even catch a break from my depressing existence in sleep. If I dont get the nerve to jump by next week Wednesday my family will have me commited to the psych ward again. I screwed up my only chance at a lasting relationship. I was in the psych ward for a couple months and when I came out my partner was married to someone else. I can not possibly continue this lonesome existence. All I do all day is tell myself to end it. The emotional pain has over taken. The schizophrenic part of my brain has merged with my bipolar and I can't take it anymore. Please, let me have the courage to jump. There's no other way for me.
 
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I'm sorry you're in so much misery. It seems your family is putting a lot of pressure on you. I can't tell you whether CTB would be preferable to life on a psych ward. I was on one for about 4 months in total for depression (on a voluntary basis): it taught me psychiatry is not based on science and if it helps it's mainly through social means. Of course I don't know what your experiences were.

The best of luck with whatever you decide.
 
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Halo13

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My dreams are even depressing... I can't even catch a break from my depressing existence in sleep. If I dont get the nerve to jump by next week Wednesday my family will have me commited to the psych ward again. I screwed up my only chance at a lasting relationship. I was in the psych ward for a couple months and when I came out my partner was married to someone else. I can not possibly continue this lonesome existence. All I do all day is tell myself to end it. The emotional pain has over taken. The schizophrenic part of my brain has merged with my bipolar and I can't take it anymore. Please, let me have the courage to jump. There's no other way for me.
I hope I don't sound rude or offensive but you were in the psych ward for two months and your partner married someone else?? That doesn't sound like a person who is worth caring about. Someone who loves and truly cares doesn't just marry someone else in a few weeks. That is not unconditional love on their part and would not last as a relationship. A good relationship is not conditional. Sounds like you're much better off without them.

I'm sorry you're in so much pain but nobody deserves to be in a fair weather relationship. You deserve MUCH better than that, not settling for less! :hug:
 

Mogley26

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My dreams are even depressing... I can't even catch a break from my depressing existence in sleep. If I dont get the nerve to jump by next week Wednesday my family will have me commited to the psych ward again. I screwed up my only chance at a lasting relationship. I was in the psych ward for a couple months and when I came out my partner was married to someone else. I can not possibly continue this lonesome existence. All I do all day is tell myself to end it. The emotional pain has over taken. The schizophrenic part of my brain has merged with my bipolar and I can't take it anymore. Please, let me have the courage to jump. There's no other way for me.
Really? Jumping is the only way? Do you have a place to jump from?
 

Fadingfast

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May 9, 2019
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Fuck it Im gonna drive to Niagara Falls. No high bridges here in Georgia.
Opps didn't mean to drop the f bomb just frustrated. The drives less than a day and I've seen it before.
 
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