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xstixxx96

xstixxx96

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Mar 26, 2020
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Hi all. I’m new to this site. I live with bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder. I survived a Suicide attempt back in 2018 and I’m at that point again. But this time I don’t want to keep fighting with myself whether it’s right or wrong. I just want to be okay with it and just do it. I’m tired of meds not working and living in a world where mental health is so scrutinized. I’m so close to ending it all. Thoughts? Opinions? Any and all respectful comments are welcomed. Help please!
 
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Hopeindeath!

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Welcome.:hug: I am sorry that your life is so terrible that you want to CTB. I am here if you need someone to talk to.
 
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Nem

Nem

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Sorry to hear that and I completely understand. What does borderline personality disorder present itself as? I don’t know much about it
Peace/hugs
 
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BPDbitch

BPDbitch

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Welcome to SS! I have borderline too, I’m sorry you have it because it’s truly a nightmare. Always here if you want to chat x
 
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xstixxx96

xstixxx96

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Mar 26, 2020
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Welcome.:hug: I am sorry that your life is so terrible that you want to CTB. I am here if you need someone to talk to.
Thank you very much
Sorry to hear that and I completely understand. What does borderline personality disorder present itself as? I don’t know much about it
Peace/hugs
BPD presents itself similarly to Bipolar. Mood swings are a huge part of it. Sometimes dissociating from yourself and the world. Suicidal ideation is also very common with BPD. Feeling of fear of abandonment etc. I’m more than happy to answer any other questions you might have
 
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m00nl1ght

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Mar 26, 2020
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I kinda understand how you might feel. I also suffer from BPD and I´m new here. Feel free to contact me if you need someone to talk
 
faust

faust

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Jan 26, 2020
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Welcome to our forum!
I know it is hard to live with such a diagnosis and if a regular person does one step, then you have to do 3.
I think a good idea would be to stick with us and find people with similar illnesses.
They can share their experience with you and you may take a look at your situation from a different angle.
It is important to find people like you no matter what your final decision is.
Good luck to you!