I Have the Light Inside, Surrounded by Darkness
- Sep 22, 2019
You definitely seem tons more knowledgeable than me about the CO factor needing to be way higher than 10,000... But HOW does one ensure there is enough Charcoal and Woodchips? Or what is this "Acid" stuff mentioned?? (Sorry... I'm a newbie)Yeah I think he overdid and underdid it at the same time - that's not uncommon. He took some relaxing oral helpers, don't recall which - like, beer, valium or stronger - which makes sense but you have to understand that these will dumb you down , make you careless, or at worse make you feel that life is livable - the horror !
Or just put you to sleep. He also probably underestimate the lacking airtightness of the car.
Don't recall if the amount of CO he produced was sufficient right now, but I think he completely understood why he failed. That restored my faith in human intelligence ;))
LOOK : You have to do this WELL.
Think it through.
Do the fucking MATH.
Be a man, or woman !!! Walk the walk.
You want this, you are fed up with the shit.
I can so tell you that I am - I'm a strong personality, I'm high IQ, considered physically attractive, been successful in a creative business, had great relationships - whoa, big fucking deal. No serious personal stickups - a few accidents. So what ? I had a great life, but... going on forty, what now ? What do I want ?
Are there still traditions we can cling to ? Everything got deconstructed.
Probably just my exaggerated expectations... something that would last after I die...
Don't we all suffer from that ? Maybe we should go back to being just healthy mammals. Do our thing. Be part of evolution rather than try to be smart asses and escape - where to, what for ? WE CAN'T. We can only masturbate and make believe.
So when society actually started to ape back down, furthering retardedness as a virtue, I simply couldn't take that - we should have gone on developing, I had expected that. I would have so loved more evolution - was that unhealthy ? I don't think so.
So - fuck you, primates ! Die out, primeval, amphibian scavenger shit ! Bong, bazong, swat-beep ! Woo-hoo !
But I really only want to get out of the momentary mood (almost done) and I think it would be a fucking waste of time at this point to even get into the details of why... I had a complete breakdown today, never experienced this before. NEVER in my life.
It was a cloudy day in July, very exceptional here... here reminiscent of November.
I need the Sun.
I couldn't take it. I began to howl... I revised my plans and decided to pre-pone the ctb dates, and check out October latest.
Nervous breakdown, almost physical. I felt as if my head would explode. No exit except one.
Life is not initially for thinkers, only for breeders - and the evolution of associative intelligence can be seen as an errant strain.
Life is basically a molecular complication that furthers universal entropy, NOTHING ELSE BUT THAT CAN BE PLAUSIBLY PROVEN, and if you as a mammal manage to interpret this as a satisfactory 'meaning,' be my guest ;)
You're in luck, you're managing yourself.
For me, THE FASTER, THE BETTER.
Ooph. Feeling way better after two glasses of Port. Whoa but that was terrible... terrible.
I don't want to feel like this ever again/
I'd really prefer to be dead.
1600 can do - airtight premises.4000 is a safe bet, but with acids you can reach 50000 PPM in a car or a small room.
I can explain the math.
Seriously - everybody can teleport and forever circle the galaxy, accompanied by the Phoenix Asteroids...
Never forget to tell people that the 'nausea' often mentioned is not a quality of CO, but simply resulting from lack of oxygen over a long period of time.
So you want to have an AMPLE supply of oxygen - make sure of that. Don't strangle yourself.
Then kick in the CO, which is able to replace the Oxygen at molecular level, by about factor 250...
So, ample supply of Oxygen is in no way detrimental. It won't matter, but it will keep the nausea away.
You can have as much Oxygen it as you like. Is this understood ? Just don't let the CO escape...
No headaches for you. Only CO can do this !
It's almost magic... the most elegant killer gas ever ;)
Die a sophisticat.
My biggest challenge is I don't know Where to buy stuff like the "Acid"... or if it is even legal? (yikes)