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It does because outside of here, nobody knows about Stan. It is strange. I want to tell the world about him and can’t.View attachment 23510
I don’t know if this one applies as much to you @Jean4 because I know a lot of people around you don’t know that you’re grieving. But I can tell you that this certainly applies to me. The next person that dismisses my pain, I’d like to just punch them in the face. I suppose they wouldn’t be expecting that, would they?
One of my favorite movies (the original.)
Thank you. Truth!
No going without telling us!!!I’ll be coming soon, Stan. I can feel it getting closer every day. Just a few more loose ends that I have to find the energy to tie up. I think I was out of bed yesterday for a total of one hour. Today, it’s almost 12:30 PM here and I just got out of bed, and that was only because I had to go to the bathroom and I couldn’t hold it in anymore. I think I’m going to make myself some coffee & just go back to bed. I don’t even want to change my clothes or wash my face or anything. I’ll take a shower tomorrow.
There are so many things coming up that I don’t want to face or have to deal with again. Things that come around every year, like paying taxes and so on. Also, my SIL had surgery on January 30th. It was nothing serious, just an elective surgery and she’s recovering now. That’s how I was able to spend NYE here instead of being badgered into going to her house. Once she recovers, she’s already talking about dragging me to yet another doctor for my thyroid, even though I’ve told her over and over that I don’t want to see any more doctors about it because it’s a waste of time. It’s just the same old crap over and over again and I’m so sick of it I don’t even know what to do anymore. I’m sick of fighting with her about everything. One day soon I’m going to go off on her and say something that’s going to upset her and everyone’s going to be mad at me because, after all, “she’s only trying to help me”. The problem is, I didn’t ask for and I don’t want her help, but she won’t take NO for an answer.
Everything is pulling me more and more toward ctb. I’m also thinking about my goodbye thread and what I want to say.
If I had more energy and was able to think more clearly, I’d already be done with all this crap and I’d be swallowing my SN tonight.
Hold a place at the bar for me, Stan. I’m sure I’ll need a drink by the time I get there.
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I never got to attend concerts with my parents. Feel free to share any stories. :)There aren't really any vids I can find of the specific shows I've seen with my dad but I can post the songs of the bands!
My dad absolutely LOVES Stills. This was his favorite show.
I'll try to post more soon.