Are people sick of you because of your depression/suicidal thoughts?

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Heavens YES as far as me. When I was at the huge company for 5 days back in early October, and I informed some of the people up the "food chain" that I had depression and wore my heart on my sleeve, EVERYTHING went down hill in fast fashion from there. Like I tried and to tell them, " it is always easy to judge, but hard to understand", I got blank looks, oh boy was fired not long after that! That is why I love ss and EACH AND EVERY one of my gloabl family members here, weARE family period!!!! LOVE IT!!!
 
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I used to confide in someone who was also a survivor of CSA,?we used to talk on the phone support and each other, but after a time they decided to part ways. Their email tried to convey not wanting to hurt me but they failed in that respect. I’m not big on trust .. people lie and most are fakes. “Talk to me “. quickly changes to unanswered messages and you learn not to share any painful shit, suicidal thoughts or any distress.
 
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Everybody is entirely sick of my shit.
Psych ward is telling me to stop wasting resources for people who really need help.
Intensive care tells me to just kill myself already.
Treatment centers write me off as 'too sick for help'
My parents and family cant stand me, tell me Im selfish, attention seeking and a freak that only talks about death. All my friends leave because see above. And my boyfriend drank sn last year
The world is clearly telling me to fuck off and die.
 
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My mother is sometimes but she often apologizes because it’s not my fault that I’m sick.
 
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It has happened at different times in the past.
I suppose people just get a kind of 'Compassion Fatigue' sometimes .
 
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I know people don’t like negative people. So I try to be as positive as possible and not talk about how I feel because literally no one cares about your suffering. I learned this the hard way. I don’t want to drive my friends away. This site does help me vent and I am grateful.
 
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I certainly feel like people are sick of me. But for whatever reason, my friends still talk to me. And people on here like me. If you're fortunate enough to find the right people, they'll stick around. But is it enough?
 
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Everybody is entirely sick of my shit.
Psych ward is telling me to stop wasting resources for people who really need help.
Intensive care tells me to just kill myself already.
Treatment centers write me off as 'too sick for help'
My parents and family cant stand me, tell me Im selfish, attention seeking and a freak that only talks about death. All my friends leave because see above. And my boyfriend drank sn last year
The world is clearly telling me to fuck off and die.
The world is telling me this too. Family is sick of hearing me.
 
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I have never talked about it with anyone, in fact I am in treatment with psychologists and psychiatrists without anyone in my environment knowing. The only thing I have talked about with my psychologist and my psychiatrist is my depression and the situations that triggered my depression, I never mentioned my suicidal thoughts to anyone. I feel that no one can help me or understand me with this. I also don't want the few people I have around me to get away from me because of my depression and suicidal thoughts.
 
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I can relate, and so i don’t tell anyone about my plans to ctb. (Except for here)
I’ve told some of my friends about my depression- i tried reaching out- but some got tired of hearing about me being down all the time and left- and those that remained honestly have enough of their own problems that i don’t want to burden them further and tell them repeatedly about my continuing to be down-
Besides they can’t help anyway.
And i treasure the very few friendships i have left- everyone else got sick of my depression and left- they couldn’t handle my dark humour, and they also definitely didn’t deal well with my prior attempts at ctb.
Even my family- my brother and i were so close growing up. Ever since my first attempt at ctb, he put serious distance between us. His wife won’t even let me babysit my nieces- it’s like i’m persona non grata...
Rejection at its best.
 
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I can relate too. I have suicidal thoughts everyday. I usually don’t talk about it because I think that my family is fed up or simply don’t care. My wife is my tutor and she knows when i’m down. I feel
sorry for her because i feeel like i’m draging her into my unpleasant world. I know she is not happy. But she keeps taking care of me.

I don’t have any friend i can talk to about it. When i tried to reach out they simply start saying the same BS... “get over it”, “do ‘t yhink like that”, “everything is going to be okey” ... and the list goes on. It’s not so easy... I gave up on life a long time ago. I have Asperger, i’m deeply depressed and psychotic. I can’t take my own life right now because there are a few things I have to take care 1st. I’ve been hospitalized so many times that I lost count. I hate to go to the hospital. They watch every single step I take... even when i showered. I go to therapy on weekly basis and to my psychiatrist once or twice a month... I’m tired of everything around me... but I pretend to be stable in front of my family but in reality i feel like an empty shell. Goodnight everyone and thanks to whomever read this.
 
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Heavens YES as far as me. When I was at the huge company for 5 days back in early October, and I informed some of the people up the "food chain" that I had depression and wore my heart on my sleeve, EVERYTHING went down hill in fast fashion from there. Like I tried and to tell them, " it is always easy to judge, but hard to understand", I got blank looks, oh boy was fired not long after that! That is why I love ss and EACH AND EVERY one of my gloabl family members here, weARE family period!!!! LOVE IT!!!
I’m sorry you got fired that’s illegal you should sue them. But yes I’m so glad I found this site everyone is understanding and supportive
 
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I have got trashed despite being resiliently positive like a cockroach, cannot imagine how many miliseconds I'd last if I were despressed.
 
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I have got trashed despite being resiliently positive like a cockroach, cannot imagine how many miliseconds I'd last if I were despressed.
I have seen some of your other posts and what you wrote here makes me sad for you. You are such a nice, and warm person and always there for all the other global family members. ALWAYS REMEBER THAT YOU ARE SPECIAL, not only to me but to the WHOLE world. I wish you all the rainbows, sunny days at the beach witha nice trade wind flowing over you with a cold drink in hand. Take care and remember that YOU are loved, cared and thought of here by your entire global family!!! Walter:heart::heart::hug::hug::happy::happy::love::love:
 
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I’ve lost all my friends and don’t want real life contact with other people. All I can really talk about is my depression that’s because I don’t really have anything else in my life to talk about. After my first failed attempt there were so many of my friends deserted me and I just don’t have any confidence to make new friends. Battling with anhedonia and suicidal thoughts on a daily basis is such hard going but it’s all I seem to do just now. I know there’s no point in me telling others about my intentions to ctb it’s better just to focus and be prepared for when that day arrives.
 
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I mean I gotta have friends for them to stop talking to me :'(

I've tried hinting at it in the past but I think the average normal person just doesn't want to deal with that stuff. My parents are anti suicide obviously and from the just get over it line of thought. They think suicidal people are just lazy and need to get out of bed and stop moping.

I do think being depressed makes it hard to make or keep friends. No one wants to deal with it unless you've found a really amazing person.

As for suicidal thoughts I know better than to tell anyone. Things can get worse from that route. Maybe it's just me but I feel like mental healthcare just hasn't come as far as physical healthcare.
 
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Yep i lost many prolife friends bcuz of that. Oh well i guess they were not my friends in the first place..
ya those do not sound like very good or genuine friends. I met some people online who claimed to be suicidal and attempted to make a suicide pact with some of them because they claimed they wanted the same thing, only to be turned down every time I wanted to meet up. It's crazy to me how people can be so fake and ingenuine. Good friends seem to be very difficult to find.
 
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From the other perspective, I prefer being around people who have similar thoughts like me (suicidal, depressed, etc.) I can't stand people who has a really positive attitude towards everything, I don't know why. Maybe I'm jealous or just can't relate or understand how it's possible to not be sad/depressed, or how it's possible to love yourself.
 
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Since my hospitalization, I feel that the few people who know have pulled back. They're either put off or have their own shit to deal with. I get it. I just received the paperwork I need to re-obtain my amitriptyline. It's time to end this for everyone's sake. Myself included.
 
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It could be me projecting, but I think they are. Or at least, I think they're at a loss and don't know what else to do, so it just comes across as indifference. Again, could just be me.

Also I say "they" like it's a group, but it's just my mom and sibling in my life right now.
 
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My closer friends knows about my depression, and they knows about I'm trying to fight the illness.

But they don't know my suicidal part...

Only one knows that, and at now she dont know that I'm here.
I'm so scared about if people knows my suicidal part...
 

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