Anyone else suddenly feel so much better the closer they get to their date?

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Motherfly

Motherfly

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Oct 24, 2018
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In the current week, I've been busy gathering everything I need for my method, wich is the nitrogen exit bag. Those who know about it are aware how complicated it is to get your hands on every like things it needs.

So here I am, with the whole thing at home and I'm not gonna lie, I didn't feel so relax, zen and contemplative of the things around me for such a long time now.

It makes me wonder, is this just an illusion, I am suddenly feeling better because I know I'm gonna be free soon, that I'm gonna stop suffering? Is this feeling normal?

I feel like it's tricking me into thinking that my life isn't that bad after all, that joy is coming back.

I'm puzzled between going trough with my plan, that this feeling is actually a proof that ctb is the thing I need. And on the other hand, it's a sign that I should give this whole life thing an other shot.

Anyone else felt or feel the same way?
 
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Maroon

Maroon

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Jan 12, 2020
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I felt it the first time I thought I had a way to ctb for sure. But it turned out I didn't do enough research, and my method wouldn't work. It felt really bad to feel that feeling of freedom fade because of that. I definitely interpreted it as happiness as a result of finally being done with life. I think a lot of people like to keep their sure-fire methods on standby, so they have the comfort of knowing they could ctb at any time. I hope you're content with whatever you choose to do.
 
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