Antidepressants

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ceasetobreathe03

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Dec 20, 2019
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Last night was kind of rough. I felt lonely and sad for no reason. It was coming in waves, and then came the tears. I'm realizing that even though I'm suicidal some days, I'm starting to feel sad more often. I haven't been diagnosed by a doctor yet.

I was talking to my mom and I think she see's that I get really sad (especially at night). She mentioned how there's an option to take medication. I love her a lot and I'm considering talking to my family doctor. She's not always that easy to talk to though (my doctor) :/ I might consider antidepressants, but I know that sometimes medication isn't enough. I feel like if I take them, there's a chance of me getting back on the right track to where I want to be. If all works well, and I decide to go on meds, I'll focus my time on the recovery section of the forum and will stay in contact with my social worker.

I know many of us on the forum are on meds, but is anyone on antidepressants? How do they work for you? Do you know what the side effects are, if there's any at all?
 
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CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

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Wish I could give hugs over internet :hug:

I was on ADs. Tried three before settling on venlafaxine, which made me functional, but it never helped to get any breakthrough. The only notable side effect on me was losing all sexual desires, but they recovered when I stopped. I know some here weren't as lucky.

However, I am chronically depressed. If your state is just temporary, ADs might help you get to the point where you can feel alright on your own. They might not though, and there is something fundamentally wrong with them.

- Unable to feel mentally comfortable (hard to explain)
I might know that one. Is that restlessness, where you feel too agitated and kinda stressed inside your body, even if you are in a totally chill situation?
 
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memataporfavor

memataporfavor

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Last night was kind of rough. I felt lonely and sad for no reason. It was coming in waves, and then came the tears. I'm realizing that even though I'm suicidal some days, I'm starting to feel sad more often. I haven't been diagnosed by a doctor yet.

I was talking to my mom and I think she see's that I get really sad (especially at night). She mentioned how there's an option to take medication. I love her a lot and I'm considering talking to my family doctor. She's not always that easy to talk to though (my doctor) :/ I might consider antidepressants, but I know that sometimes medication isn't enough. I feel like if I take them, there's a chance of me getting back on the right track to where I want to be. If all works well, and I decide to go on meds, I'll focus my time on the recovery section of the forum and will stay in contact with my social worker.

I know many of us on the forum are on meds, but is anyone on antidepressants? How do they work for you? Do you know what the side effects are, if there's any at all?
The thing about antidepressants is finding one that matches your needs, and this depends wheter your doctor is a good one and cares enough to keep changing'em until you find the right one or if it's a doctor that doesn't give a fuck (the majority). I'm lucky as hell and have a psychiatrist that kept trying and changing my medication depending on my symptoms changing or not, on me adapting or not, getting worse or better, etc. Atm, I'm on 2 antidepressants, I take one in the morning (bupropione) and one at night (paroxetine). I know meds do not work for everyone. Every body and mind works in a different way, but for me, those antidepressants associated with more two mood stabilizers work. I'm not 100% as you can see, but I'm conscious I'll never be. My meds help me function. Without them I could not get out of bed sometimes to even shower or eat. So for me, they work. They might work for you.

Ohh, and the only side effects I get are getting my mouth dry... and sometimes headaches... but as I take 4 different meds a day I can't really tell which one gives me what.
 
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Nuggest

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I might know that one. Is that restlessness, where you feel too agitated and kinda stressed inside your body, even if you are in a totally chill situation?
Actually, I don't think so. That one rather falls under "aggressiveness".
Do you know the feeling when you are listening to emotional music which deeply resonates with you and you feel at complete peace? It's such a minor (but also great) thing that I didn't even notice it going missing. It was only when (after months) I abruptly stopped taking the meds that it suddenly reappeared after a few days of extreme head pain.
 
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It's tricky, because they work differently for everyone. This is why there's so much experimenting before people find the right meds for them.

I'm on lithium, and it works well for me. It helps with the suicidal urges. But it's not enough alone. I need something else with it. I have to get frequent lab tests to monitor lithium levels. It can build up in your body fast.

In the past, I've had good results with Trintellex. I'd like to get back on that, but my psychiatrist doesn't want me on it for some reason. I'm going to ask again, though. No side effects for me.

Unpopular as this is, I've had good experiences with Prozac. It just wasn't strong enough. I had no side effects, but some people do.

I've tried many more that had bad side effects, but none were permanent. Vraylar was the worst, with muscle twitches for a few weeks after discontinuing. That's the reason I stopped.
 
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Holacanthus

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Antidepressants can help, although as others have mentioned, it's a question of getting on the right one(s). Therapy can help too. You wouldn't believe what difference it can make having someone to talk to.

For me, therapy has been more effective than antidepressants, which have worked until they didn't. Everyone is different though.
 
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Nuggest

Nuggest

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That's something that happened to me. I wanna ask you, did you blow up about random stuff that you normally wouldn't care about?
Yes, kinda, I got a lot more sensitive to annoyances and got confrontational. I was badly itching for a literal fistfight.
Every morning we had these morning activities, with a hundred people walking around a field and about five people (including me) jogging. At one point the group of joggers and strollers meet head on - the joggers having to filter through the mass. It kinda pissed me off that I, being exhausted, had to navigate through the slow ones and inhale disgusting cigarette smoke from the group. At one point I got so pissed by this that simply bodychecked the next person which was in my path (a girl, and me being 1.9m and 90kg :eh:). I blame the meds.
 
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Broken Chimera

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Yes, kinda, I got a lot more sensitive to annoyances and got confrontational. I was badly itching for a literal fistfight.
Every morning we had these morning activities, with a hundred people walking around a field and about five people (including me) jogging. At one point the group of joggers and strollers meet head on - the joggers having to filter through the mass. It kinda pissed me off that I, being exhausted, had to navigate through the slow ones and inhale disgusting cigarette smoke from the group. At one point I got so pissed by this that simply bodychecked the next person which was in my path (a girl, and me being 1.9m and 90kg :eh:). I blame the meds.
Idk if we took the same stuff, but it had the exact same effect on me. Sorry you went through that.
 
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LittleJem

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Look at reviews of different ones, they can really help people. There are risks, but they are rare....it is worth trying them to see if they help
 
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memataporfavor

memataporfavor

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Yes, kinda, I got a lot more sensitive to annoyances and got confrontational. I was badly itching for a literal fistfight.
Every morning we had these morning activities, with a hundred people walking around a field and about five people (including me) jogging. At one point the group of joggers and strollers meet head on - the joggers having to filter through the mass. It kinda pissed me off that I, being exhausted, had to navigate through the slow ones and inhale disgusting cigarette smoke from the group. At one point I got so pissed by this that simply bodychecked the next person which was in my path (a girl, and me being 1.9m and 90kg :eh:). I blame the meds.
That kind of annoyance you're describing is me without my meds lmao
 
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SSRIs are the reason I will be CTB. Maybe at one point I would have praised them too for helping with OCD. They did shit for depression though. And don't for most people. Just sexuality and emotionally numbing pills. That's all they are. Not happy pills. Numbing pills. And now it's times a million and permanent for me. Should have stuck with benzos. Or just stuck with natural ways of dealing with mental illness. This is waaay worse.
 
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ceasetobreathe03

In a year, you'll forget I'm gone
Dec 20, 2019
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Wellbutrin and medical marijuana. Just had bloods taken for Lithium. I would NEVER be without them.
I smoke marijuana whenever I can get my hands on it.
I forget about all of my problems