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All I want is money

Mustkeyknow

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I know we all want money, some more than others, but I need to get over this unhealthy obsession, It’s literally killing me. All I want is a good job that pays really well, and I’m obsessed 24/7 trying to find it.

I think at this point there’s a possibility that that might not happen for me, idk this girl at work who’s very positive tells me it’s not impossible, but i feel like times running out for me. I’m 33 goddamn it.

I have so much fear and anxiety over the future. I know life offers no real guarantee of stability, but neither does death.
 
Mustkeyknow

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Why do u need a lot? Do you want a luxurious lifestyle?
I want to be independent from my parents, something which I have yet to achieve. It’s frustrating to me seeing younger people purchasing their first house and their awesome new car while I’m struggling to pay my bills. I’ve been obsessed with the idea of getting a higher paying job to no success for the past year. Prior to that I was OK with my mediocrity because all I cared was smoking weed and working out. Then I stopped smoking weed ando realized all the damage that I had done to myself and my career. I hope it’s not too late for me.
 
Mustkeyknow

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Wouldn't it be great if you could do something you love and money would naturally follow? Is there anything you love to do, whether it makes money or not?
Yeah, I love to sing, unfortunately and realistically speaking the chances of success are against me. I wouldn’t mind taking classes and signing in some bar over the weekends though.
I feel the same way, but im too obsessed with the thought of killing myself to even bother looking for a job. It's consuming me and it's not going to stop until I do it
Have you gone to therapy? Are you taking meds? Is there anything else you would like to try before CTB?
 
GoodPersonEffed

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Yeah, I love to sing, unfortunately and realistically speaking the chances of success are against me. I wouldn’t mind taking classes and signing in some bar over the weekends though
If you didn't have a great-paying job, it could at least supplement your income and you'd enjoy doing it and not get burned out from "working" a second job.
 
krsu

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Yeah, I love to sing, unfortunately and realistically speaking the chances of success are against me. I wouldn’t mind taking classes and signing in some bar over the weekends though.

Have you gone to therapy? Are you taking meds? Is there anything else you would like to try before CTB?
i supposed i can try to go to drug rehab, but when im sober i dont think i will feel any better anyways so whats the point
 
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TheQ22

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I'm the same as you Mustkeyknow (except no income), but I'm over 50 - I think you will find what you're looking for, you are still relatively young. At least compared to me.
 
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noname223

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I can feel you very well. It drives me nuts - how can I get money. I try a lot but i have the bad feeling that nothing will work out. My life is so fucked up. At least i can blame the people who abused me. I am ten years younger but the coming poverty makes me really mad and will probably kill me.
 
overcomingfear

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If money and time weren't problems life would be pretty easy. Financial consequences and wasted time are the real risks of me being depressed for long periods.
Life would still be shit but i wouldn't have to drag myself thru a job i don't like
 
Mm80

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I know we all want money, some more than others, but I need to get over this unhealthy obsession, It’s literally killing me. All I want is a good job that pays really well, and I’m obsessed 24/7 trying to find it.

I think at this point there’s a possibility that that might not happen for me, idk this girl at work who’s very positive tells me it’s not impossible, but i feel like times running out for me. I’m 33 goddamn it.

I have so much fear and anxiety over the future. I know life offers no real guarantee of stability, but neither does death.
Might sound like a stupid suggestion but do you put the lottery on ? If not woukd you consider it ?
 
always_wanted_this

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Financial independence is my core issue as well. I am lucky to have a well paying job, but that's not helping me. Whatever the career, I am not made to work, being forced to do something for 8-12 hours a day for rest of my life. I would rather die.

If I had enough money to support myself without working till I grow old I would not be suicidal. I have loads of things which I would enjoy doing, or doing nothing at all. Most enjoyably having a choice, decision and full autonomy over my activities beyond breathing, eating and maintaining hygiene.

Only thing that keeps me going is a tiny hope that I might be able to do something and not have to work. But a failed business attempt later, tons of debt from it (mostly recovered now), I am kind of losing hope. I feel like it's not worth trying anymore, as it was too hard getting here and I would rather just die. If I knew I would succeed in 5 years, I would still probably choose death, as it is too far and too much slaving away still. I feel like I got tops 2 years in me.
 
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StarNomad

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Financial independence is my core issue as well. I am lucky to have a well paying job, but that's not helping me. Whatever the career, I am not made to work, being forced to do something for 8-12 hours a day for rest of my life. I would rather die.

If I had enough money to support myself without working till I grow old I would not be suicidal. I have loads of things which I would enjoy doing, or doing nothing at all. Most enjoyably having a choice, decision and full autonomy over my activities beyond breathing, eating and maintaining hygiene.

Only thing that keeps me going is a tiny hope that I might be able to do something and not have to work. But a failed business attempt later, tons of debt from it (mostly recovered now), I am kind of losing hope. I feel like it's not worth trying anymore, as it was too hard getting here and I would rather just die. If I knew I would succeed in 5 years, I would still probably choose death, as it is too far and too much slaving away still. I feel like I got tops 2 years in me.
There it is in a nutshell, that is why there should be an UBI ( Universal Basic Income )!
 
Emily_Numb

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You want a successful, well paid job but apart from looking for one, what are you doing in order to be qualified for those kind of roles?
We all want lots of things, I want to be a doctor, but I didn’t go to medical school. Wanting isn’t enough.

Perhaps rather than being obsessed with the end goal of a certain ‘job’, you should be obsessing over improving yourself and making sure you are the best candidate.
 
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Jojo81

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Financial independence is my core issue as well. I am lucky to have a well paying job, but that's not helping me. Whatever the career, I am not made to work, being forced to do something for 8-12 hours a day for rest of my life. I would rather die.

If I had enough money to support myself without working till I grow old I would not be suicidal. I have loads of things which I would enjoy doing, or doing nothing at all. Most enjoyably having a choice, decision and full autonomy over my activities beyond breathing, eating and maintaining hygiene.

Only thing that keeps me going is a tiny hope that I might be able to do something and not have to work. But a failed business attempt later, tons of debt from it (mostly recovered now), I am kind of losing hope. I feel like it's not worth trying anymore, as it was too hard getting here and I would rather just die. If I knew I would succeed in 5 years, I would still probably choose death, as it is too far and too much slaving away still. I feel like I got tops 2 years in me.
Financial Independence is my favorite dream too. Have been burnt starting a business too. If I knew I would succeed in 5 years, I will stick with this fight and try to taste victory.. But currently unemployed and Desperate for money
 
Mustkeyknow

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You want a successful, well paid job but apart from looking for one, what are you doing in order to be qualified for those kind of roles?
We all want lots of things, I want to be a doctor, but I didn’t go to medical school. Wanting isn’t enough.

Perhaps rather than being obsessed with the end goal of a certain ‘job’, you should be obsessing over improving yourself and making sure you are the best candidate.
this is the truest advice. I mean, wanting something isn’t enough to get it. I did went to finance school but haven’t been able to land a proper finance job though.
 
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Might sound like a stupid suggestion but do you put the lottery on ? If not woukd you consider it ?
Have you won a lottery.? Am thinking that is the only way to financial freedom.. But how would I know that I would win a lottery except keeping day dreaming about it.
 
Mm80

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Have you won a lottery.? Am thinking that is the only way to financial freedom.. But how would I know that I would win a lottery except keeping day dreaming about it.
Have you won a lottery.? Am thinking that is the only way to financial freedom.. But how would I know that I would win a lottery except keeping day dreaming about it.
I won something called a reverse lottery. Its for charity, what happens is you pay a pound and if you are the winner, you have to pay 100 pounds, and it goes to the charity.
So basically i lost money by winning the lottery!
I suppose you woukd never know if you would win the lottery, but buying a ticket would give you small chance.
Have you also tried wealth affirmations?
 
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I have the same feelings- financial independence would ease so much of my intense pain and stress. I am an actor and voice actor but due to corona and industry trends against my “type”, I can’t work. I rely solely on my mother, as my father just called me two days ago and told me he’s completely bankrupt and might become homeless. I feel so, so, so wasted. I hadn’t been on this side for a while and I went right back to it- between this quarantine and my professional life, I am just so fucking hopeless and lonely. I’m scared to die but also I can’t stand living an empty lonely, pathetic life like this.
 
RC90

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I used to have all that you were looking for, a high paid job, an amazing house and car, and yet I still felt miserable.
 
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Jojo81

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I used to have all that you were looking for, a high paid job, an amazing house and car, and yet I still felt miserable.
Don't take money for granted.. It is very important... I regret all the money I spent.. Tours and travels but now I hate to see the pictures of myself when I was travelling. I thought that those memories would last forever but now all those are my miserable thoughts .
 
Viro_Major

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All I want is not give a shit about money, the root of many evils. In my perspective, it’s only worth to perform good actions around and cherish the ones loved or in need. If ever, it’s merely an energy flux that is meant to be transferred and shared.
 
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Blueman

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Don't take money for granted.. It is very important... I regret all the money I spent.. Tours and travels but now I hate to see the pictures of myself when I was travelling. I thought that those memories would last forever but now all those are my miserable thoughts .
Oh yes, I'd done more travelling than I could ever have imagined but even in my 50s I couldn't stop in fact it wasn't even making me happy anymore. I'd have had more fun staying at home saving money and planning a decent future retirement which I now can't afford
 
racek

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Dont worry, there are a lot of Americans from US so they can share with you some cash and you will buy yourself some stuff for recovery. I hope its not inappropriate but hey. There are donation sites for cancer, why not for folks that want to improve their life situation
 
Tony Dark

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Try to get work that is interesting to you but, more importantly, that is not that time consuming so you have more time to become an entrepreneur.

Why? Because you’re probably not qualified for high-paying work and it would take long for you to acquire the necessary qualifications.

The faster route to wealth is to start a business. What that is you will have to figure out for yourself. Do research.

Plow a good part of your savings into index funds. Again, do research.

In your free time, build a business. This is the surest way to wealth.

The people I know that have/had long careers as executives have little time and (in my opinon) not enough money to show for that time they put in.

Trying to get rich through a job is like trying to be a career athlete or actor. Too many people vying for the same position.

A business may be risky but there lies the path to wealth.
 
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