- Nov 12, 2020
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I know this isn't an AA forum, but are there others who cant help destroying themselves through alcohol, prostitutes and other addictions? Deep down you know life has been good to you, but feel you have to fuck it up. Trouble is no matter how you fuck life, its always gentle. Then you feel ungrateful. Anyone gets my drift? You indulge in all vices, abuse yourself..., your body, your spirit, your values and everything. Then, you know, in 3 days, youll be ok. Even when you want to ctb, you know itll be ok eventually. Its like a contract with God..., because, when you stop indulging, a fear takes over things will go wrong. I believe some people feel this way. Please tell.