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  1. T


    Hello everybody. I’m new to this and I’m ready to ctb. I’ve been reading up on threads the last few days and this is my first time hearing a lot of these terminologies. I’ve tried to ctb before, overdosing on painkillers and hanging. Obviously, you see how well that has worked. I need more...
  2. W

    Scared tonight

    It's not time yet, I need to get through tonight. Some stuff has happened that scares me, and I do not know what horror tomorrow will bring. Shaking a bit because I am scared. Cannot really go into specifics, but if anybody wants to reach out and take my mind off things it'd help a lot.
  3. nzdarkshark

    [Help] I Can't Seem To Get The Right Spot (Partial Suspention)

    I've decided my most likely method is going to be partial suspension. I attempted last year but failed due to backing out. I keep trying to 'practice' by pressing my fingers against my throat where the pulse is. I used to get dizzy, lighteaded and my vision would sometimes go fuzzy - but now I...
  4. ☆SadUnicorn☆

    How to suicide

    Hi something just happend and it will get worse and ik when I feel bad pain I just kinda loose control and have more strength/will to do something and in the past I just slit wrist but never did enough obviously. I'm just in my room and I can't go outside at night (cared living stuff) I don't...
  5. Baskol1

    [Venting] Religious prolifers are the worst.

    I think the religious prolifers and anti suicide crowd are the worst. Especially their platitudes are the worst. Like Jesus loves, you and if you pray to jesus you will not be depressed or suicidal anymore. You dont need therapy, just jesus. They do not offer any help, but will you criticize...
  6. G

    Combining SN with the night night method?

    I'm worried about just using SN because even with Reglan and Zofran I struggle just to eat normal food without throwing up. I'm wondering if anyone sees something that could go wrong with me taking SN, and then quickly attempting the night night method with a tree crank. I figure that even if I...
  7. D

    [Help] I can’t go on anymore

    today was really awful for me. was making plans in my head to hang myself. But I remembered this site and thought maybe I should try to reach out. for me I’ve been bullied a lot in life. And it’s been hard because I really internalized those things. I’ve been called ugly behind my back by this...
  8. Rex2019

    [Help] How do you ask for street drugs?

    Call me naive but I have never tried drugs and I'm not really sure how you go about getting them.. Hypothetically, If someone wanted to OD on heroin and wanted to get some, how do you go about it? Whom should you ask and what should you ask for? Should I go to the seedier part of town and just...
  9. Emmmmmmmma

    [Discussion] Those who failed hanging. Why?

    I recently tried to hang myself, I had it all sorted out and ready to go. I put the noose around my neck and all I could do was swallow, it was a horrible feeling of choking and being forced to swallow repeatedly. Then all of a sudden I became paranoid and worried. I lost all trust in myself and...
  10. S

    I just want to write about how tired I am of trying to kill myself.

    English is not my first language. I am from Russia. I'm sick and tired of trying to kill myself. I tried to hang myself and I'm still trying. After one of the attempts, when I tried to squeeze the carotid arteries, I got sick with tonsillitis. And had terrible sore throats for a week. I have...
  11. Kotochan

    Poke holes in my plan please?

    Hey guys I've been doing a lot of work on my ctb process. I know exactly how I will die, but my main priority is to avoid my family or a bystander finding my body. I would prefer the police to find my body. So no outside ctb where passerbys might find me. The reason a forest ctb doesn't work...
  12. Nobodysfault

    [Help] How to keep Sodium nitrite??

    Hello, I got a small bag, 100mg of SN. i got it from an unkown seller on ebay. I have no way of knowing if its real SN or not, how much time does the supplier had it or if the bag was opened. Please help me with the following questions: A) if the SN is placed in a sealed bag, how long will...
  13. lululoo

    One last mushroom trip?

    I could use some advice. Should I do mushrooms one more time before I CTB? Pros: -Could help me be more at peace with death if I have another mystical experience -Tiny tiny chance (like hitting one atom with a dart in the whole universe) that it helps me in some way that turns my life around...
  14. FatherDeath

    Easy and painless

    Does anyone know of any way or anything to take. A way I can go without even knowing it’s happening? Doesn’t have to be quick, I just don’t want to see it coming or know when it’s gonna happen. Anyone got anything for me? Like at all?
  15. WhyAmIDyingInside

    The urge to hurt oneself

    Hi, I am now here so please tell me if this toppic is not wanted here... But I wanted to ask you guys if you have any tips to cope the with the urge to hurt oneself Thank you in advance for your help. :)
  16. M

    Quetiapine OD?

    Hi, I'm just wondering if anyone has any experience with overdosing on quetiapine/Seroquel and what kind of symptoms they had, is it a reliable drug to CTB on, etc. I use it for sleep, I take ¼ of a 25mg pill because I am very sensitive to it and it knocks me out. Once, I took like 12 whole...
  17. T

    [Help] Anyone know a good way to pay anonymously through Bitcoin?

    Or really any way that doesn't leave a trail. I want to order N but I am extremely paranoid. I was talking to someone who said that you can open a PO box under your real name and it will be fine. So that should be okay. This is all in Canada by the way so if anyone has any useful info let me and...
  18. Rex2019

    barbiturates available from a doctor

    So I read that Fioricet is a barbiturate that is given for Migraines( ). Migranes seem easy enough to fake. I was wondering if anyone knows any other barbiturates that are given out by docs? If so for what ailments? Also does anyone know any...
  19. lululoo

    Combining N with plastic bag

    I was thinking about whether it would be a good idea to put a plastic bag over your head after drinking N. That way if for some reason your batch of N was too weak to kill you, you would still pass out from the N and then suffocate. It seems like a good idea, but maybe I'm not thinking of the...
  20. omsoc

    [Help] Gun shot suicide?

    Hi everyone, new member here. Basically to cut to the chase. How badly would a head shot hurt? I’m guessing it would be instant to the point where pain receptors don’t have time to react? I need your help because, this would be my preferred method of going out next to hanging or maybe an exit...