fear

  1. asaki

    [Venting] Maybe saying this will help

    It's been years of me convincing myself that I'm not suicidal despite it being the first thing on my mind every morning, and months since I've joined this forum. I've seen many be on here for days and leave like that, yet I am nowhere near as brave. Does that make me a coward? My parents were...
  2. Nobodysfault

    [Venting] Knowing suicide is not an option is even worse,

    Yeap its my second venting today.. Knowing suicide is not an option is even worse, it terrifies me because it will bring me to a final lost of the little sanity i still hold onto. Seriously, it doesnt mean compromising on life- it means losing my mind and make things worse beyond any...
  3. 15dec

    [Discussion] Self-grief

    How do you cope knowing you are going to ctb? Is there anything specific you’ve done, other than researching methods to help come to terms with it? I’ve been writing short stories and poems about my reasoning for ctb, as well as what I hope the afterlife will be like. I think it’s helping me to...
  4. Tiburcio

    I tried it but i can't. i'm scared as fuck.

    I decided today was the day. It's the perfect moment for doing it. My parents will come back in a week so I thought if I had a lot of time for myself it would give me confidence and valor for hanging myself. But no. I was pushed back again. That irrational fear I spoke about so many times...
  5. Tiburcio

    [Discussion] Does someone have weird phobias?

    I mean, have you a so weird phobia that makes you ashamed of talking about it? That kind of phobias that you can't believe they exist until you see it. Well... This is your place! I personally have two strange fears that I don't know their name. -This can sound surrealistic for people who...
  6. Tiburcio

    I want it, i must do it... but i fear it.

    I'm very sure of what I'm going to do and it's the best option I have and I really want to do it. If you are going to say me to live more time or waiting until somethings change, don't write, you are not welcome in my thread. Each time I hear it I feel myself being stabbed. I know very well...
  7. M

    Why i still haven't done it

    What I like about this forum is that I can finally write about suicide without sounding alarm bells and receiving threats of forced hospitalizations and police welfare checks. I've been through it all: hospitals, medication, treatment, self-encouragement, everything. I don't have too much time...
  8. NoLifeNoPain

    [Discussion] Fear of death

    We all want it, but we all also fear it. Survival instinct. How are you going to defeat this ugly monster that keeps you away from your goal?
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