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  1. usagi

    [Help] I can’t take the pain

    hi. I’ve never posted on a forum in my life, so this is my first time. I’ll try and keep it short. I’ve struggled with ptsd, bpd, major depressive disorder, generalized anxiety, you name it. I had a very traumatic and violent childhood with my step father who is thankfully no longer in my life...
  2. whyidon'tknow

    Anyone else sit alone in their car because there is nowhere to go

    I Sit in my car on my phone sometimes because I don’t want to go home and I either don’t wanna see friends or they aren’t available. Sometimes for 3+ Hours Please tell me i’m not the only one
  3. Kjo

    [Discussion] More pressure from a feeling of "cried wolf"

    I'm not sure how weird this sounds... But I've been depressed for so long and finally told everyone in my life, therapists included, that I'm too tired to keep going. They're all aware. No, they didn't lock me up. They all see the cuts and self harm scars, new and old. . . Now every day I...
  4. I want to die

    [Discussion] Am I the only one?

    I can’t help but feel like a big failure whenever I fail a suicide attempt. Am I the only one or are you happy that you didn’t succeed ? No need for details, just general feeling :)
  5. GeorgeJL

    [Recovery] The Hidden Cause Of Your Depression - For Older People - For Suicidal People

    I think I've rediscovered a hidden cause of depression and why many of the older people are on here need to look into this. For women it's called menopause for men it's called andropause. In both cases the bodies hormones go through a stage in which they downgrade sometimes leaving us feeling...
  6. postmortem

    [Discussion] How has mental illness affected your family and social life?

    I live in a country where mental illness is considered a myth. When I was first diagnosed with depression and anxiety, I feared telling my family and friends because of the ridicule I would face. And I was right in doing so, because the minute word got out that I was on medication, my friends...
  7. Imustdevourthe

    Speaking in "tongues" while drunk.

    Maybe I really want speaking in tongues but the father of my child came over last night and said I kept saying something he couldn't understand and also that I can't do this I just want to die. I was shitfaced. I have no memory. I asked him did it sound like slurring or another language...he...
  8. I want to die

    [Discussion] Random question

    This might be a stupid question but where the heck do people find hard drugs?!? Or guns?!? It seems like something I just see in movies! (not weed.)
  9. muretax

    [Venting] Depression Session

    I’m just going to jump right into it. I left a management position last year to take care of my mental health. I almost didn’t make it this far and I’m not sure how I feel about that. I’ve been unemployed since late last October and I got my first interview for a new job next week and usually...
  10. muretax

    It’s been a while

    Hey, everyone. The last time I posted in here was back in December. I had a plan to end it all before 2019 started and unfortunately that never happened. The last week of 2018, I got sick and was misdiagnosed and I didn’t want to spend my last moments sick, unable to see my family for the last...
  11. Plankter

    [Venting] Spring is depressing

    It's tough to see happy people doing happy people things outside. The warm weather and clear skies also put a pressure on me to go out and do happy people things but sadly that's just not gonna happen. I hate this time of the year.
  12. F

    [Discussion] Isn't it scary to 'know' there's no god?

    I was brought up very religiously but after suffering from OCD and depression for over 12 years and calling out to god for help with no response, it seems there most likely is no god to help us. Which means nobody is in control, human beings are free to do whatever they want to each other...
  13. F

    What harm can a little waiting do?

    Hello I'm new here. Would you mind reading my story, it'd make me feel a little better. I've been suffering for a while now. I "contracted" my mental illness (OCD) when I was 12 (now I'm 24). I don't know something in my brain blew off at that age making me develop full blown OCD. Until then...
  14. Plankter

    I want to share my favorite picture in the world with you guys

    This is the Ultra Deep Field image taken by the Hubble telescope: You may have seen it before, it's a popular image. Unless you have, let me introduce you to my favorite picture ever. Everything you see in the picture besides the 3 or 4 bright spots (which are stars) are galaxies (there are...
  15. S

    [Discussion] Music you listen to suffer

    does anyone else listen to really gruesome and disturbing music? if so, what?
  16. CFLoser

    [Venting] Wish I could be a magical girl from Sailor Moon. :/

    I've been watching Sailor Moon and I want to be able to help people and fight the clear evil people. In the sailor moon world, everyone is happy for the most part, the evil lady just ruins things (metaphor for depression). I wanna be able to stop those forces with my group of friends. Plus I...
  17. CFLoser

    [Method] Minecraft as a way to diagnose depression. [Maybe dumb]

    I was thinking... If you start up a minecraft world, single player, and u are able to enjoy yourself for at least a month spending hours daily... then you may not be depressed. Since it's a sandbox game, you have to make your own enjoyment. If you can make that enjoyment in minecraft, then you...
  18. whisper_willow

    [Venting] I don't think I have long for this world.

    Hello, Willow here. As the title states I don't think I have long for this world. I really want to live I think, but i can't keep going on like this. my life is getting worse. i'm tired of taking pills, I'm too tired to work anymore. I can't hardly function at work and I'm not going to get...
  19. M

    [Venting] Thank you Guys

    I'm feeling super down right now so I guess that's why I decided to just give my first post. Well just wanted to thank everyone on this site and how I was blessed to find ss on Reddi long ago because it changed my life I used to be so hopefully with all the "suicide is wrong. there is hope for...
  20. I am ___________

    [Discussion] I had a dream, what do you think it means?

    Today I had a dream where me and my twin were on some sort of transportation, like a bus or train. All i know is that we were on something that was moving and could see the terrain (houses, background, etc). All of a sudden I see my twin is being attacked by a group of other guys, I rushed to...