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  1. scorpiooo2

    [Discussion] What’s a song you’d like to CTB listening to?

    Mine would definitely be Wait - M83
  2. irregularheartbeat

    [Discussion] Have you made plans for your body and funeral?

    I've been thinking alot today about what I'd like to happen to my body after I ctb, such as burial method, funeral, etc. Personally I'd prefer to find a natural way of decomposition but I haven't settled on anything yet. What are some of y'alls plans if you've made any? Or just some ideas...
  3. TheFishingDude

    Want to CTB This Weekend at 00:05, Sunday

    Hello, I have almost finished preparing letter for my dear mom. On 00:05 Sunday I will take SN. I will follow 48 hour regiment: 1. 10mg x1 tablet of Metoclopramide every 8 hours 2. 10mg x2 tablets of Metoclopramide 1 hour before SN (Sodium Nitrite, NaNo2) 3. 200mg x4 tablets of Tagamet 30...
  4. RedPanda

    [Venting] I want to be remembered as a failure

    I'm just going to start off by saying that my brain is really messed up. All i want is to be remembered as a failure by everyone who knew me.Even though i have accomplished some great things in my life by starting my own business and helping thousands of people, i still want people to view me as...
  5. V

    I think I'm ready to ctb.

    I left one of my jobs today and bought a nylon rope on the way home. I might linger for a little while just to see if there's a chance I can find another job or ever feel secure, but I'm not counting on it. Binge watching Better Call Saul and trying to forget about my life for now. Things were...
  6. Emmmmmmmma

    [Discussion] What do you do as Trans

    I'm trans Male to Female, I spend most of my nights drunk playing video games, I know that I will never be the way I want and CTB seems like a good option, I am currently being monitored due to a previous attempt so doing anything serious will get me flagged. But what are you meant to do, my...
  7. N

    Biggest reason for CTB

    I'm curious to see what is everyone's biggest reason for considering CTB as the only way out. Is it mental illness? Abuse? Trauma? Being misunderstood? Being LGBTQ, etc? Lack of connection? Lack of purpose? Lack of meaning? A little of everything Or nearly everything? I'm genuinely interested to...
  8. maxdata

    [Help] Hanging Advice Needed

    I weigh 61kg, I am using the slipknot method with a 1cm width Hemp rope, I am planning my set up on a tree branch (I will test the strength before of the branch before ctb), how big of a drop do I need. I am just concerned because I have read peoples failed attempts with ropes breaking but the...
  9. onlyinsleep

    Will SN cause a lot of pain with no gallbladder?

    Edit: I'm super sorry if I've asked this before. I have a terrible memory sometimes due to my condition. So there doesn't seem to be a lot of literature regarding whether or not SN causes abdominal pain. If you Google it, it CLAIMS that is a side effect. Nitschke says it is a peaceful way to...
  10. krtgrf

    [Discussion] Going out with a bang

    By "going out with a bang" I mean doing shit that you would never do without knowing you're about to die. Trying the most intense things that might cost you your life. Crime, or a spectacular, strange death. When nothing matters to you, it might just feel fun to think of something absolutely...
  11. Emmmmmmmma

    [Discussion] Help CTB (hanging)

  12. Faraway1990

    [Venting] I almost CTB 2 nights ago

    A couple days ago I woke up thinking to myself " today is the day, I'm going to CTB tonight" and I meant it I spent the day doing little things I enjoy one last time finishing up my letters gambling away most of my money since why not? I haven't done it for a long time lol anyway: The love of...
  13. lost in my mind

    [Help] How to prevent you parents from finding you?

    Well umm, I want to ctb at home.. I don’t want my parents to find me like that or even see me as a dead body.. is there any possibility of ctb without my parents has to see me at any point? I thought I would send a message that will be sent after an hour to my therapist saying “ I’m dead call...
  14. mea.culpa

    Overcoming Aversion to CTB

    Quick context: I am 22, have been dealing with depression for about 5 years and suicidal ideations for the last 2 &1/2. At this point, I have overcome [to the best of human ability] the fear of my own death. My primary aversion when dwelling on suicide is the selfishness of the act. (I...
  15. Dracovern

    Goodbye and additional info for everyone (Especially Canadians)

    In about 5 hours I will CTB I will post a few things in here for anyone else to CTB as a lot of this info was difficult for me to get since some things have changed. Shipping N to Canada was reliable for me and 2 other people I know of. Delivery took about 2 weeks using his courier option, I...
  16. 3cookies

    I want to ctb but keep putting it off....

    I seriously want to ctb before I’m no long able to without assistance. I want to die on my own terms and not this drawn out, slow, and epically painful way. But every time I set a date to ctb something happens and I postpone. Things that have happened: I was seriously sick & throwing up so I...
  17. S

    [Help] Easiest way to ctb

    Hey all, i want to ctb soon. I did much research on the CO Method and the hanging method, but I can’t choose one of them. Which one is easier? I have fear that the hanging method don’t successfull is. Maybe some of you can help me to pick the right method. Thanks!
  18. lost in my mind

    [Help] Afraid ECT will change my ctb plan?

    I hope I won’t sound stupid or so.. My shrink wants me to go through ECT. I’m not scared about the process itself, but I’m scared af that it will make me less suicidel. I mean I don’t want to go back to that place where I’m depressed but not enough to be able to CTB, idk if that makes any sense...
  19. lost in my mind

    Any good writing about suicide?

    Do you know some writing that can make suicide sounds a little bit more reasonable to those around you that love you so I can left it in my note to ease the pain somehow? Ty
  20. lost in my mind

    Position when partial hanging?

    I’m sorry if it has been asked already, I tried to look for answers but couldn’t. How do you position yourself when partial hanging? And how Do you practice on it?