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  1. onlyinsleep

    Will SN cause a lot of pain with no gallbladder?

    Edit: I'm super sorry if I've asked this before. I have a terrible memory sometimes due to my condition. So there doesn't seem to be a lot of literature regarding whether or not SN causes abdominal pain. If you Google it, it CLAIMS that is a side effect. Nitschke says it is a peaceful way to...
  2. krtgrf

    [Discussion] Going out with a bang

    By "going out with a bang" I mean doing shit that you would never do without knowing you're about to die. Trying the most intense things that might cost you your life. Crime, or a spectacular, strange death. When nothing matters to you, it might just feel fun to think of something absolutely...
  3. Emmmmmmmma

    [Discussion] Help CTB (hanging)

  4. Faraway1990

    [Venting] I almost CTB 2 nights ago

    A couple days ago I woke up thinking to myself " today is the day, I'm going to CTB tonight" and I meant it I spent the day doing little things I enjoy one last time finishing up my letters gambling away most of my money since why not? I haven't done it for a long time lol anyway: The love of...
  5. lost in my mind

    [Help] How to prevent you parents from finding you?

    Well umm, I want to ctb at home.. I don’t want my parents to find me like that or even see me as a dead body.. is there any possibility of ctb without my parents has to see me at any point? I thought I would send a message that will be sent after an hour to my therapist saying “ I’m dead call...
  6. mea.culpa

    Overcoming Aversion to CTB

    Quick context: I am 22, have been dealing with depression for about 5 years and suicidal ideations for the last 2 &1/2. At this point, I have overcome [to the best of human ability] the fear of my own death. My primary aversion when dwelling on suicide is the selfishness of the act. (I...
  7. Dracovern

    Goodbye and additional info for everyone (Especially Canadians)

    In about 5 hours I will CTB I will post a few things in here for anyone else to CTB as a lot of this info was difficult for me to get since some things have changed. Shipping N to Canada was reliable for me and 2 other people I know of. Delivery took about 2 weeks using his courier option, I...
  8. 3cookies

    I want to ctb but keep putting it off....

    I seriously want to ctb before I’m no long able to without assistance. I want to die on my own terms and not this drawn out, slow, and epically painful way. But every time I set a date to ctb something happens and I postpone. Things that have happened: I was seriously sick & throwing up so I...
  9. S

    [Help] Easiest way to ctb

    Hey all, i want to ctb soon. I did much research on the CO Method and the hanging method, but I can’t choose one of them. Which one is easier? I have fear that the hanging method don’t successfull is. Maybe some of you can help me to pick the right method. Thanks!
  10. lost in my mind

    [Help] Afraid ECT will change my ctb plan?

    I hope I won’t sound stupid or so.. My shrink wants me to go through ECT. I’m not scared about the process itself, but I’m scared af that it will make me less suicidel. I mean I don’t want to go back to that place where I’m depressed but not enough to be able to CTB, idk if that makes any sense...
  11. lost in my mind

    Any good writing about suicide?

    Do you know some writing that can make suicide sounds a little bit more reasonable to those around you that love you so I can left it in my note to ease the pain somehow? Ty
  12. lost in my mind

    Position when partial hanging?

    I’m sorry if it has been asked already, I tried to look for answers but couldn’t. How do you position yourself when partial hanging? And how Do you practice on it?
  13. S

    [Discussion] Why do you want to CTB?

    Hey, thats my second post here on this forum. I just want to know why you want to CTB. I want to ctb since I’m a little boy but I didn’t have the strength for it. Now, many years later with much more pain in my soul, I want to end it this year. My mother tried to suicide several times last...
  14. Infinite Sadness

    Suicide by hanging

    Hi everyone, I'm new in this forum, I'm live in Western Europe, I'm 19 yo, and I want to gain some knowledge on suicide by hanging, and I also want to know what's your thought on this peaceful, and calm location in the forest I've found today. I will go into detail and give the reason why I want...
  15. lost in my mind

    [Help] Suicidel paragraphs ?

    Do any of you know some good suicidel writing? Like some sort of paragraphs that can describe what it feels like to suffer like that and why people decide to ctb.. I want to add someone to my note and I want something that can describe it pretty well in order to make them realize and understand...
  16. A

    [Method] CTB - Combo method

    Hi Guys, Just reaching out for some advice. There are 2 options and I would like your thoughts on both of them. The target is to make it look like an accident. No plans of doing it right now but just want to have a solid plan in mind for future purposes. Also very comforting to have a...
  17. ImSorryEmma

    Another reason why im afriad of failing to CTB

    Description: Cop strikes an attempted suicide victim in the hospital is sentenced to more than five years in prison A cell phone video entered into the court record by the US attorney’s office of Paterson police officer Ruben McAusland putting on hospital gloves and violently striking an...
  18. CptBBQ

    [Help] Probably going to CTB today or tomorrow. Any tips for the Night Night method.

    I finally got cornhole bags and an endless ratchet. I didn't actually know how heavy the bags would be, I expected them to be like beanbags :ahhha:. I think I know where my carotid arteries are, or atleast the general location, it's where the pulse is on the side of your neck right? Also you...
  19. Alecsa

    [Discussion] Leaving people behind

    A back story: my ex cheated on me and it's been the cherry on top of my shit life. I can't say it's the reason why i want to ctb but it's my major trigger atm. My ex has always been scared of how i have times i strongly desire to ctb and says would blame himself etc. I don't want that for him...
  20. I am ___________

    [Venting] End of the line. 21 days till ctb

    Atleast I can say I tried, I tried to see if things would get better but not to my suprise, it does not. Things have just become even more worse, there is no point in keeping an animal in complete misery. Should just put it out of it's misery, unfortunately there is no one to do that for...